Me and ME

Five years ago I became unwell. My GP said my symptoms were anxiety, due to a family bereavement, I disagreed. All the same I got no further with him. After suffering with a sudden sensitivity to sound and visual disturbance, I went back. I had, meantime experienced, in my opinion, a virus. shivers, sweats, tinnitus. He added depression. Then I invited him to listen to my heart, which was racing. An ECG was rapidly arranged. The cardiologists mentioned a virus and a heart scan revealed a small electrical abnormality. My GP said that explained a lot. I began to hallucinate and suffer extreme panic when left alone. Then discharge came down my nose. A second GP diagnosed a abscess of the sinus and prescribed light weight anti biotics. The symptoms continued and got worse. My third GP looked at my thyroid, it was/is fine. A battery of tests were done; many blood samples taken. Nothing was found. I was so exhausted I could barely walk. The cardiologist said my small problem was not to blame, it was viral. My GP was adamant it wasnot as they couldn't find one. I survived, by telling myself it was viral. I crawled my way around the house and garden, feeling totally bewildered and isolated. I had no energy; but ate like a horse. My husband helped with everything. Gradually after some strong anti biotics given for a green cough, I began to gain a little strength. I began to slowly walk a fair distance and do light housework, resting constantly inbetween each tiny task, which felt mammoth to me. My husband was diagnosed with Glandular Fever last year, his symptoms were similar to mine but not so acute. I went to his GP and within 5 minutes had a diagnosis. Glandular fever related type virus with bacterial infection and CFS/ME. I could have kissed her. I am now pushing gently on. Gently. No rush, it's been 5 years, I've learnt patience. I hope, in time to be well enough to get my life back. I chat with others; on Fb , cyberspace and in reality to explain my story, so they can understand what is happening to them, as it is often a case of...no diagnosis.