I TURNED MY LIFE AROUND FROM ILL HEALTH
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My recovery from M.E/Chronic Fatigue Syndrome
September 2009
Five years ago at the age of 24 I became increasingly anxious suffering with frequent panic attacks, depression, insomnia and M.E. symptoms. I believe that this was brought on by intense prolonged stress and childhood trauma. I gradually started to loose confidence to do simple things, even reading took too much energy and was so unwell I couldn’t even lift a shopping bag or stand up for longer than 10 minutes without feeling dizzy. I felt like half a person, pale and exhausted.
Trauma therapy allowed me to grieve my past and gain back a quality of life and there were significant glimmers of hope where I achieved wellness but I was unable to hold on to it and would continue to relapse. I strongly believed in the connection between the mind and body and wanted to find something that would move me forward and lead me to wellness on a more permanent basis.
Support from my employers allowed me to continue working part time but continual rest was required to cope with supporting myself financially and socialising was practically non-existent.
I was recommended the Lightning Process by a colleague of mine and I'm so happy to have discovered it and completed the course. After the first day I know my life was about to really change. I left the course that day with a beautiful sense of calm within – I couldn’t remember life without anxiety before. I went shopping for three hours in the afternoon without getting dizzy or tired. The process seemed so simple and yet so powerful. This course brought all the pieces of the jigsaw together.
By the second day of the course my self esteem had soared and I began to believe that I really could have a life I loved. Everything I was being taught about the illness made so much sense – it was like coming home.
I finished the course with a much deeper love for myself and my body. I knew I had the power to remain well and that I would resolve my issues using this process. I met a friend in London that day, walked around Covent Garden and travelled on the tube – all these things I would have been unable to do before.
Two weeks later
I have not needed to rest at all during the day. I’m more alert at work and coping well with pressure. I’ve gone for long walks, met up with family and friends who were happy to see my glow and positive energy. I’m also sleeping soundly – what a treat! I can see great things continuing to happen for me in the future and can’t thank the process enough for giving me my life back – I feel like a new woman. I truly believe that when love and skill work together, you can create a masterpiece.
April 2011 - a year and half after completing the programme;
I feel happier than ever - my confidence and self-esteem continue to soar as I try more and more new things. I'm now working, studying for a Foundation Degree in Art and Design, dating, socialising at weekends and exercising.
I have rebalanced to be a healthy, happy, positive person.
I never stopped believing that I would recover and because of that I was drawn to a permanent solution. If you believe this to be an organic illness, out of your control, you will not get better. Its simply being permanently stuck in the fight or flight response. You can rebalance those chemical reactions, creating more positive, empowering thoughts and responses. I have to continually work on my recovery, reinforcing my confidence and power, particularly when learning new things and dealing with challenges - but thats normal, everyone needs to do that whether they have suffered illness or not.
There is life after M.E.
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This recovery story is in categories: Anxiety, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, Depression, ME (myalgic encephalitis)