I TURNED MY LIFE AROUND FROM ILL HEALTH

My recovery from M.E/Chronic Fatigue Syndrome

September 2009

Five years ago at the age of 24 I became increasingly anxious suffering with frequent panic attacks, depression, insomnia and M.E. symptoms. I believe that this was brought on by intense prolonged stress and childhood trauma. I gradually started to loose confidence to do simple things, even reading took too much energy and was so unwell I couldn’t even lift a shopping bag or stand up for longer than 10 minutes without feeling dizzy. I felt like half a person, pale and exhausted.

Trauma therapy allowed me to grieve my past and gain back a quality of life and there were significant glimmers of hope where I achieved wellness but I was unable to hold on to it and would continue to relapse. I strongly believed in the connection between the mind and body and wanted to find something that would move me forward and lead me to wellness on a more permanent basis.

Support from my employers allowed me to continue working part time but continual rest was required to cope with supporting myself financially and socialising was practically non-existent.

I was recommended the Lightning Process by a colleague of mine and I'm so happy to have discovered it and completed the course. After the first day I know my life was about to really change. I left the course that day with a beautiful sense of calm within – I couldn’t remember life without anxiety before. I went shopping for three hours in the afternoon without getting dizzy or tired. The process seemed so simple and yet so powerful. This course brought all the pieces of the jigsaw together.

By the second day of the course my self esteem had soared and I began to believe that I really could have a life I loved. Everything I was being taught about the illness made so much sense – it was like coming home.

I finished the course with a much deeper love for myself and my body. I knew I had the power to remain well and that I would resolve my issues using this process. I met a friend in London that day, walked around Covent Garden and travelled on the tube – all these things I would have been unable to do before.

Two weeks later

I have not needed to rest at all during the day. I’m more alert at work and coping well with pressure. I’ve gone for long walks, met up with family and friends who were happy to see my glow and positive energy. I’m also sleeping soundly – what a treat! I can see great things continuing to happen for me in the future and can’t thank the process enough for giving me my life back – I feel like a new woman. I truly believe that when love and skill work together, you can create a masterpiece.

April 2011 - a year and half after completing the programme;

I feel happier than ever - my confidence and self-esteem continue to soar as I try more and more new things. I'm now working, studying for a Foundation Degree in Art and Design, dating, socialising at weekends and exercising.
I have rebalanced to be a healthy, happy, positive person.
I never stopped believing that I would recover and because of that I was drawn to a permanent solution. If you believe this to be an organic illness, out of your control, you will not get better. Its simply being permanently stuck in the fight or flight response. You can rebalance those chemical reactions, creating more positive, empowering thoughts and responses. I have to continually work on my recovery, reinforcing my confidence and power, particularly when learning new things and dealing with challenges - but thats normal, everyone needs to do that whether they have suffered illness or not.
There is life after M.E.


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Related Websites
http://www.afme.org.uk
Action for ME, a UK charity for CFS, ME sufferers
http://www.cfspages.com
http://www.chronicfatiguesyndrome.me.uk
This site includes a forum and live chat, as well as articles, advice and stories from CFS sufferers.
http://www.fightingfatigue.org
Blogs, articles and lists of web resources for CFS and Fibromyalgia
http://www.healingwell.com/pages/
HealingWell.com Resource Directory
http://www.me-cfs-recovery.co.uk
Information about CFS and treatment at me-cfs-recovery.co.uk and me-cfs-treatment.com


Comments
By bcb, 02-Jan-2012 16:36
what is the lightning process? Why do you think it helped you so quickly?. Is it mind over matter?. I have heard it is very expensive to participate.
By Mel, 04-Jan-2012 04:55
It is a training programme that re-wires the chemicals in your body stabilising your health and wellbeing. It isnt expensive compared to the results of getting your life back - i paid 750.00GB. I quickly recovered as i applied the techniques i was taught. It works because you are stopping that fight and flight response instantly, thats whats causing the illness.Your body should only be in it for a few seconds in danger, not 24.7. As long as you are ready to take responsibility for being unwell it will work and you will be able to do all the things at the moment you could only dream of. Im getting married in a few months, ive moved towns, at Uni, going Sking next week - all of which i couldnt havent imagined when i was unwell. Good luck : )
By bcb, 31-Mar-2012 15:04
Hi Mel, was just wondering how your recovery is going. Would you say that you are symptom free now?. I have had four sessions of reverse therapy and I am feeling much better - i don't fear my symptoms now which is speeding up recovery. However, i get terrible pressure on the top of my head at times which are irrational, things which my body should not find threatening like when people i have not see for a while or neighbours speak to me. I hope to get over this soon as i really want to get back to work to ease financial pressure (been off for 7 months), trying to stay positive. Hope you are happy and healthy!!
By Mel, 01-Apr-2012 02:45
Hi, glad your feeling better. I think as you begin to do more old neurology will come up that you will need to put in its place. Your jumping new hurdles all the time which challenges your new found confidence. The important thing to remember is to praise yourself for each step forward no matter how small to get those loving feelings about ourselves in motion. When your unwell you build up many fears. Stay curious of your bodies reactions rather than fighting against them. Ask your body what it's trying to say and take it from there. Your body just wants to be well. Good luck : )
By Lucy, 19-Aug-2014 22:51
I have done the LP. It helped a bit, for a bit. I think it helps mostly for people who have an anxiety and stressful thinking component to their ME/CFS. I believe there's lots of causes of ME though. Plus how can they excuse charging the best part of £1000 for it? Worth it if it does work, but what if it doesn't? It's just making money off desperation.
By Mel, 20-Aug-2014 08:09
Dear Lucy, im sorry you feel it hasn't worked for you. For those of us that have recovered and ill health is a thing of the past it is most certainly worth the money. M.E is a living death, you cant put a price on recovering from that state. Are you doing to LP consistently? Are you getting frequent support from your Practitioner? Have you created within yourself a no nonsense coach? Have you reached a deeper love for yourself that's often missing from M.E. sufferers? I put reminders all round my house to get me thinking about wellness. M.E. is anxiety based, its the over production of adrenaline. If your still duing continual adrenaline, you will still feel unwell. Please don't give up because I know so many people who are benefiting years down the line from this process. Make the money you spent worth it. x
By Al, 02-Feb-2015 00:16
ME is just a label diagnoses that doctors use for people that can't receive another diagnosis, there are many causes just like Lucy said. If there is an immunological cause, either viral, fungal or bacterial infection then the training programmes such as the lightning process wouldn't help much, would it?
By Evelina, 02-Feb-2015 00:20
Here is an example of a similar programme that claims to have cured people of ME. alldocumentaries.org/freedom-from-me/ I am very skeptical, and think that ME is a viral and neurological illness.
By ash123, 04-Feb-2015 06:03
Hi mel im new to this forum have you taken any supplements to help your recovery? I think my cfs was triggered my b6 toxity from a b complex i was taken it caused lot sensory systoms like tingling burning sensations fatuige.My body has been same since stoping the vitimin.
By Mel, 04-Feb-2015 06:18
The Lightning Process recognizes M.E. as a real, auto-immune, debilitating illness, often triggered by a virus or trauma. If you read any of the books by Phil Parker you will see that he makes that very clear. Just because he is offering a solution doesnt mean he is discounting the causes. But we have to think outside of only treating the symptoms not the cause. It also educates people on the close mind and body connections and how we actually have a lot more control over our bodies than we possibly realize, although most of the signals we give our body are unconscious and need to be tapped into. I am privileged to be a part of a group on Facebook called the Community of Hope where we now have 600 members of people who are looking for recovery or have recovered from M.E. It is an uplifting, positive group where we encourage wellness, success stories and any treatment that has worked for people. If you would like to join the group and get some positive encouragement, we would love to have you. Ash - I have not needed to take any supplements to help my recovery, as soon as I started to apply the Lightining Process my body naturally rebalanced in every way. I practice yoga and meditation and try to eat healthy but not too strictly. Recovery is completely possible and relatively easy once you understand your body in a different way. I am living proof xx
By you're amazing too! You are super tleentad! x@Reat, 17-Oct-2015 14:28
you're amazing too! You are super tleentad! x@Reatha: Aw, thank you! I'm so glad that you've started a blog, go you! I love photography blogs, especially because I'm really bad at taking photos so I like to look at amazing photos in awe. I shall stop by and check it out! @phylor: I couldn't agree with you more! I will be able to walk without pain and fatigue one day, in fact, I'll go one better- I'll run!@Kat: I'm sorry you struggle too. It's sad that some people can't understand what we sacrifice to be able to work, study or hang out with friends and look "normal". Appearing well takes a lot of energy and just because we manage something one day, it doesn't mean we can manage it the next. It's so great to know that there are people that understand this concept. Bless you!@Cass: Same! Most days I feel like an 80 year old trapped in a 23 year old body, so I can relate really well. That is so shocking, it's really sad when doctors don't believe that our pain is real. They of all people should know that we don't look how we feel. I've had a similar expereince- I was sent home from hospital in urinary retention because they didn't believe me. It needs to stop. Nobody will truly understand, but it makes the world of difference if they at least try.
By Sometime in the early 70 s, I spent a little bit , 19-Oct-2015 18:47
Sometime in the early 70 s, I spent a little bit of time under the hull of Acatsgrin hdniolg the little pieces of wire that Mark would twist to hold the mesh onto the spring steel. Then a few years later, I worked for Ferro Boat Builders, Inc. in Owings, Maryland. It was a joy to finally get to board Acatsgrin when she came to the Chesapeake Bay here in Maryland. Good times
By you're amazing too! You are super taeeltnd! x@Reat, 23-Dec-2015 12:21
you're amazing too! You are super taeeltnd! x@Reatha: Aw, thank you! I'm so glad that you've started a blog, go you! I love photography blogs, especially because I'm really bad at taking photos so I like to look at amazing photos in awe. I shall stop by and check it out! @phylor: I couldn't agree with you more! I will be able to walk without pain and fatigue one day, in fact, I'll go one better- I'll run!@Kat: I'm sorry you struggle too. It's sad that some people can't understand what we sacrifice to be able to work, study or hang out with friends and look "normal". Appearing well takes a lot of energy and just because we manage something one day, it doesn't mean we can manage it the next. It's so great to know that there are people that understand this concept. Bless you!@Cass: Same! Most days I feel like an 80 year old trapped in a 23 year old body, so I can relate really well. That is so shocking, it's really sad when doctors don't believe that our pain is real. They of all people should know that we don't look how we feel. I've had a similar expereince- I was sent home from hospital in urinary retention because they didn't believe me. It needs to stop. Nobody will truly understand, but it makes the world of difference if they at least try.
By And last week I had a post on the lovely Kamonda P, 30-Dec-2015 06:37
And last week I had a post on the lovely Kamonda Posada's westbie, it's called You Gotta Have Faith and yes, it's me going on again about my story'. But if people ask what's a girl to do? If you're not bored with this one yet, you can read it here.
By David, 04-Jul-2016 07:09
Why is everybody recomending the lightning process? Is it realy that good or are these commercial trolls?
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This recovery story is in categories: Anxiety, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, Depression, ME (myalgic encephalitis)